Suffering.....

Well, I am trying to be upbeat and optimistic, but I am failing miserably. I am at my heaviest except for when I had Anderson and I hate how I look. My clothes make me miserable and I simply wont stop eating. I have fallen in such a habit of eating out every day. It is terrible and every day I say I am going to stop and there I am pulling up to the drive thru swearing this will be the last time. Anyone that doesnt believe in a food addiction is crazy! At least if the addiction is drugs or alcohol, you can quit cold turkey. I cant do that with food. I have to have it every day. BUT...I am hoping that by writing down my feelings and saying out loud that I am going to stop eating out that I will really do it. It is one thing to do it secretly and no one be any the wiser. It is quite another to admit my problem and be held accountable for fixing the problem. With God's help, I know I can exercise and be healthy! I know I can do it and I am going to try VERY HARD TO DO IT!!!!!!!!!!