Ahhh...electricity...

It is terrible to think about all the things I take for granted. I take for granted that when I flip a switch, I will have light. I take for granted that if I am cold that I can turn up the thermostat and I will be warm. I take too much for granted. I am going to work every day to be thankful for something that I would otherwise take for granted. I hope that all my friends on the street are home safe and sound in warm homes with plenty of light!

appreciation

I am starting my 101 in 1001 days....

1. Crochet a blanket
2. Get a pedicure at least 3x this summer.
3. Go back to Maine.
4. Go back to Niagra Falls with the kids.
5. Take the family to see the Giant Sequoias.
6. Read the entire Bible.
7. Play games with Anderson & Alex at least 2x a week.
8. Lose 50 lbs.
9. See an opera.
10. Try out for a play.
11. Go to Times Square to see the Ball Drop on New Year's Eve
12. Commit a random act of kindness at least once a week.
13. Take the kids to the zoo.
14. Pay off our debts.
15. Tithe.
16. Give my time to church willingly.
17. Take pictures more often.
18. Print the pictures that I take.
19. Go to a UK basketball game every season even if I have to sit in row zz.
20. Have coffee with my girlfriends once a month or more.
21. Take time for myself every day.
22. Exercise!
23. Buy a great purse that isnt even on sale.
24. Buy all new undies!
25. Have a date with Jason at least once a month.

This is my starting list.....stay tuned for more.......

Suffering.....

Well, I am trying to be upbeat and optimistic, but I am failing miserably. I am at my heaviest except for when I had Anderson and I hate how I look. My clothes make me miserable and I simply wont stop eating. I have fallen in such a habit of eating out every day. It is terrible and every day I say I am going to stop and there I am pulling up to the drive thru swearing this will be the last time. Anyone that doesnt believe in a food addiction is crazy! At least if the addiction is drugs or alcohol, you can quit cold turkey. I cant do that with food. I have to have it every day. BUT...I am hoping that by writing down my feelings and saying out loud that I am going to stop eating out that I will really do it. It is one thing to do it secretly and no one be any the wiser. It is quite another to admit my problem and be held accountable for fixing the problem. With God's help, I know I can exercise and be healthy! I know I can do it and I am going to try VERY HARD TO DO IT!!!!!!!!!!

off to the dr

Well, I am getting ready to go for my yearly exam. I am sure the doctor will tell me what I already know. You need to lose weight. If only it was that easy. And yet, it is that easy. I have joined WW and I know what I need to do. I have lost before and I know how I did it. I just dont know why, now, when I need to do it for my health, that I have such a problem. I need to lose just a little and get motivated and maybe that would put me on the right track. I am hoping with God's help that I can get past this roadblock that I have created for myself and get healthy. I am not even trying for a goal weight...I am trying for an "I'm Healthy" weight. Wish me luck....

Not sure what I am doing!

Well, the new year has started with me being sick. I got better, but am feeling another sinus infection coming on. I need a break! I think Stacey's idea of making a list of 101 things to do in 1001 days is an awesome idea! I have started my list but have not gotten very far yet. There are so many wonderful things that I want to do, but if I put them on my list, I will feel compelled to do them so I am choosing carefully. I know without a doubt that I need to lose weight for my health if nothing else. I want to become a better Christian too. I go to church, but I need to become more concerned with my spiritual journey than why I dont fit in like I think I should at church. It should be about me and GOD and I am making it about people at church, not God at church. I know this in my head...I just need to feel it in my heart!!! I am truly blessed and I am going to spend more time with my blessings this year. I am going to find fun free stuff for the kids and me to do this year. I am also going to try to become debt free in the next few years. What a burden lifted if I could do that!! I am going to be positive....